Heal Thyself

I have spent so many years helping others through their grief when they have lost a loved one. One would think I would be prepared to deal with my own grief.

In retrospect, one thing I have to keep in mind is that a person has to go through the pain, as do I.

Another point is that it takes as long as it takes and we are just along for the painful ride.

Rest in peace, my Angel.

Another Bad Day

I had another bad day today. I can't believe my friend is gone.

She had Uterine Triple T Carcinoma Sarcoma Melanoma. It was a very rare cancer. Only 9 cases known in the world.

Her daughter said she had a special cancer because she was a special person. She was so right.

Nation Wide

Yesterday on a national TV show men and women were arguing about domestic responsibilities. Everyone seemed to know there was a problem but the arguements were very heated as to who was to blame.

I just have to get my book out to society. There is an answer.

Blessings

I was having another pity party today.

My friend's funeral was standing room only. Everyone who knew her loved her. She was an Angel on this earth.

I was blessed to be her best friend. I should be thankful that I had her for as long as I did. Most people go a lifetime and never have what we had. In thirty years we never had an argument or a disagreement. We were there for each other no matter what.

I guess I will have to thank God for my blessings and let the grieving process take it's course.

Best Friends for life

I can't seem to get past the grief of losing my best friend. I know it hasn't been long, however, I consider myself a very strong person. This is a strange feeling I'm having right now and I don't quite know what to do with it.
My friend Mava was one of a kind. She knew I worked all the time but she seemed ok with just getting whatever time I had left over and she never complained. She was an Angel among us. I was so lucky to have her as long as I did. I miss you so terribly Mava.

I Lost My Best Friend Today

I lost my best friend today. We have been hooked at the hip for the better part of our lives. You would never believe that anything could just force it's way into your life and snatch your friend away from you, but (CANCER) did. She read my blogs every day, however for the past few months there were no blogs to read. We were dealing with her sickness, and my heart just wasn't in it.
I love you Mava, rest in peace my guardian angel. Now you can read my blogs again.

Same Old Story

I missed a couple of months on my blog but that does not mean I haven't heard the same old story from young mothers.

Just yesterday I was reading in a magazine, dialogue between a newlywed and a counselor.

She was explaining that if she had known what marriage was going to be like, she never would have gotten married.

When asked what the problem was, she explained that even after working two jobs, her husband expected her to do all of the work in the home because he made the most money.

The sad thing is that this girl will more than likely try to handle it until she has a couple of children, at which time the work will magnify enormously. It will be at this juncture that a divorce may seem like the only answer. Then What?

Another Rejection

I received a letter from another Literary Agent which said, "We thought your book was great, but that your platform needed strengthening. Unfortunately the publishers insist on this aspect. We suggest you keep on expanding your public speaking then re-contact us in a year, unless you have already sold this."

This was a very nice response, however, it is so important for me to get this message out asap, so I can't get discouraged, I must keep plugging along.

Back at Work

I guess it was bad luck to finish my book just when the econamy tanked. I have had so many positive letters of encouragement from New York Agents but the bottom line is always the econamy. Coming so close so many times finally got me down for a short time. That isnt like me, I am usually a very positive person, and I am definately not a quitter. I guess I had better just pick myself up, stop feeling sorry for myself and get busy again. Back to my blog.